ugh

well i got back from football today, and it sucked . first of all i  can't remeber all the different routes. I know they have to call them different thing so the other team won't know what it is , but still its so freaking confusing. I really want to play to , but i got so health issues. I can't even run a mile before i feel like passing out . I love sportes , i played baseball my whole life . I had no problem before but now I feel like i'm about to fall. Today at practice I couldn't even drink water without throwing it up . My parent say it to much presure on my body ,but i say my body should just deal with it ! I would do cheerleading ,but I don't like quiting . Especially if i really want to do it. I think the coach thinks i should quit . :(  I really dont though. I just hate it when the guys think girls don't got what it takes to do the same thing they can

This might sound dumb

 To most people who haven't met me , you might not know that i dont dress girly. Im more into emo/ gothic clothes. For some strange reason ive fallen in love with kawaii things . For those who dont know , kawaii means cute in japanese. Ive never liked dresses before , but now i want lolita clothes. And no im not talking about that book or movie called lolita . Im talking about that japanese clothing style. when i look at the differen t styles i cant help ,but love them. There are so many sweet lolita , gothic lolita , country lolita , fairy tail lolita , cosplay lolita , and even a lolita that you dress up like your hurt and i can't for get princess lolita . I just love the all the different styles , and how cute they all are !!! All these dress are kind embarassing. They have lots of frills and bows . I wish i could have many of these dresses. It might just show how much more i love anime ,and how i much more i want to learn about the japanese culture.